Jonathan Turn's 8

So Oct 16 has come and my Jonathan turns 8yrs old oh what a wonderful thing he is so happy he went and talked to the Bishop last night and came home with a smile from ear to ear... We asked him who he wants to talk and he asked Lorenzo and I and I looked at Lorenzo thinking no way will he want to but nope he looked at Jonathan and said ok.. I was happy no one looked at me because I had tears in my eyes!! After Jonathan we will only have Jadon left that will be 4 down 1 to go crazy when you think of it Jon has done all of our's even mine! What a wonderful feeling jonathan can't wait and it just brings me back to my day when I got to do the same thing. So I will make cupcakes as asked by jonathan for his class then make a cake asked my jonathan... And then make him wheatever he wants for dinner crazy but it is his day Oh how this sweet little boys brings me so much joy and yes some pain lol but I love his hugs and kisses and I love you mom. So Happy Birthday to Him.....

OCD

Okay so it's been awhile since I have wrote a post so here it goes so this last weekend I went to Albuq for my Best Friends Birthday and to help my mom with my dad. I had a really good time but I didn't sleep so well so when I came home I was burned out. But the funny thing is my truck was just fine coming home in till the next day it was acting alittle off so I drop Jonathan off in the morning then pick him up. Every things okay in till I go to get Lorenzo and it wont start nothing it's dead~ well come to find out my battery is gone. If God was not watching over me then I don't know what would have happened I could have been stuck on the side of the road somewhere and my phone could or could not have worked.

So we got that fixed and then out of No where Jadon becomes sick well come to find out he has the Swine Flu with a 102.2 fever last night now some might say well its going to happen and everything will be okay and yes I think it well be Jon gave him a great blessing last night and I cried it was so good, but I get so scared not only for my other children but for Jadon I just can't seem to get over that he is a big and healthy boy now I still see him as 2 lbs but he is far from it.....

So what did I do today well I cleaned and cleaned to the point that my hands are dry every time one of the kids or even me and Jon get sick I get in this mode of OCD and I wont stop in till I feel every inch is clean now I don't know if that's good or bad but it makes me feel better! Some times I even wonder if I clean enough or did I do something wrong or not enough to keep them from getting sick.....

Oh how my mind works I know kids get sick and it's no big deal but I hate to watch my babies like that and plus I can't get sick my body will not fight anything off it fights itself. So as of right now we are all staying in till everything is back to normal.. And I know if you have ever been to my house I'm sure you guys are going oh my goodness but I have this thing about everything being where it should and just plain CLEAN....

Where Have I been??

Man oh man it has been forever since I have put any blogs up I use to do this all the time but I got on facebook and those games have me hooked. So what is New in the Newman home well lets see The Boys started back at school so I only have Jadon which is nice in till the boys come home then the fights start, Lorenzo is now in football and Loves it and Daddy is in heaven just watching Lorenzo and Jon makes me smile.. He is now in Jr high which i can't get past he's not little anymore where has the time gone? Jonathan (little) is now in 2ND grade and loves that he will be 8 on Oct. 16Th so we will looking forward to that we asked him the other day who he would like to speak the day he gets baptized and he said you Mom and you Lorenzo and it just made my heart smile, Lorenzo just looked up at his younger brother and said ok I will... those sweet little moments remind me of how much love I have for my boys... Mr. Jadon oh my he is talking up a storm and is getting into everything you know there was a time when I thought jadon would always be small well I was soooooo wrong he is not my baby any more he is wearing a size 4 already. I just don't know why life seems to be going by so fast I mean my kids are getting big and Jon and I are going on 10 yrs it's all so crazy! All I know is I am one happy Mother and Wife!

As far as me I will be going to school for photography soon and I can't wait and on top of that Jon's father has asked me to start a web page and run it for him I was shocked but I can work right here at home... My dreams are all coming true I can be a stay at home Mother and work what else could I ask for.

Mr. Jon well he is hard at work and getting ready for the holidays to start this is always the busiest months for him but he wouldn't have it any other way. And like I said he is Lorenzo's biggest fan right now it's like he has passed the torch to his oldest son..

Here's some pics of the boys this year..

My Mother always said...

My Mother would always say wait in till you have your own Children, I always wondered what she meant.. Oh how I wish I was a better daughter lol I always knew I wanted my first to be a boy and there was Lorenzo, then I wanted to have a girl out came Jonathan okay lets try one more time Girl? Nope Here came Jadon(way to fast)! But after I had my first I asked my Mother how can I love anyone else like I love him? She said it will just come you can do it, So when Jonathan came I asked the Lord please help me I don't know how to love these two boys the same then I realized I didn't have to love them the same all I had to do was love them with every inch of me. And then Jadon I cry sometimes because the Love I have for these three little boys is so strong and so real it some times hurts This Love is like no other!And I also know why I have these boys and what I have learned there is a reason for everything and I know without them I would be nothing. And now I know how our Father In Heaven feels with all of us....

Lorenzo...

So here is lorenzo going from 6th grade to 7th man my boy did so good I don't know if I could have had anymore kids because its to hard now not to cry everytime I see my boys accomplish their goals with not only school but with Church. I told Jon when I watched lorenzo come in for the awards I wanted to just break down I could tell my once little son was scared, Last year he took the TAKS Test 3 times before passing and that was so hard to watch...Mind you they don't teach the same things in Albuq,NM so Lorenzo was unsure of what these TAKS test were about.

So when it came to this year he was determined to pass the first time!!! And let me just say I loved all three of his teachers they not only helped lorenzo but they were always in contact with me which was great. So we walked in me and Jadon and my best friend and his home room teacher comes up to me and hugs me and tells me how lorenzo did he was ONE point from getting a, A in Math TAKS test and ONE point away from being on Honor Roll.. We both started to cry she said that because I cared so much and supported everything they were doing with him it payed off. And I say WE all did those teachers went beyond there duties to help Lorenzo! And he DID it he got a, A in reading TASKS TEST and like I said one point away from all A's.....

So as I watched him because he did not know anything I wanted to run and grab him and say "YOU DID IT" all you baby... so as my tears came and I watched them call his name I looked in my son's eyes and he knew how proud I was and thats all he needed was to see how happy I was for him... So after the awards we went to get his folder and hugged his teacher once more and she said how proud and happy she was for him, we started to walk away and I stopped and said I loved him and how happy I was for him. He looked up at me with tears in his and said "Mom I did good I did really good" And all I could do was hug him with tears rolling down my face.

As I realize he's not my Baby any more....I ask myself if I can do this 2 more times with my other boys and two more times with Jon's Girls.. People want to know where my weak spots are. All you have to do is look at these 3 boys and one Guy in this house and then you will know! Way to GO my RENZO!!

Let us Open Our Eyes

This is something we should all read at least once a week
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me... It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled
over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ’In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
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Remember that I will always share my spoon with you! Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves!

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"May you love as long as you live and live as long as you love"

So the Big news

Jon was called to be the 2ND Counselor in the Bishopric today I was in tears and so were his parents I was so proud to see him up there right before they told him to go sit up there I asked him if he was scared and he said yes.. Now if you know Jon he is not one to get scared about much of anything, but this was one of those things that he felt he was not ready for..

Let me just say this (and by no means is this because he is my husband) Jon is such a big loving person, with a heart of gold he would do anything for anyone without question he See's so many things that I overlook and he is my rock, soul mate and best friend and I know that Our Father put him where he should be...

Jon's parents came so that his Dad could do all the stuff after and I cried, bishop, his Mother, his Dad and Jon and there was some other people in there.Jon being the only Brother in his family to go on to a Mission or be active in anyway I'm sure you could understand how his parents felt, When they were doing this I went and sat by Jon's Mother and held her hand and we cried together.

Many people just see this as oh well he is just 2ND Counselor but I see it as growth and faith and the love and blessing that Jon has been given! I knew when I met him that he was great guy but each day that goes by makes me love him more and more what a great example he is to our kids the boys were so happy!

So as I watch my oldest past sacrament each Sunday and now watch my Husband sitting beside the Bishop I realize how lucky I really am.. And we should all count them one by one!

They Did so GOOD!!

This year has been a good one I have a wonderful family and great kids, This year is one for the books and it's not even over yet.. So many great things have happened first as you all know we walked for Jadon in the March of Dimes for the 1st time and that was crazy but most rewarding ever..

Then The boys did so good in school this year Lorenzo PASSED his TAKS tests on the first try so off to 7Th grade oh my Goodness and he had his last Band Concert last Wednesday which he was great in! Jonathan got Honor Roll and was in the news paper and A Good Citizenship Award, Next week will be Lorenzo's Awards. Jadon well he talks alot (just like me) and let's just say he is healthy and smart but I have learned that three's are just as hard as two's.... Jon well he has A new Calling but I can't say till Sunday! But I will say I am so very proud of him he has come along away and although Jon thinks he is not the right person I feel different Jon is the most loving, kind a gentle man I know he is My Best Friend and I will always stand beside him in all the things that come along.

As for me well I'm learning more and more about my illness and learning what to do and what not to do so that's good they are putting me on new meds Oh how I hope they work and I went to RED yes my hair is red and I love it... And next week Jon and I are off For Cali with our friends John and Stacey for a week this year we will be married 10yrs so that is our gift to each other since I am the only one that has never been there I can't wait!!! So you know I will have lots and lots of pics. But here are some pics for now Jon's parents are coming today so we are very happy more pics to come on Sunday!!!!!

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Friends...

So today is cold windy and dark and lots of rain (love these days) but everyone in the house is either napping or playing in there rooms no one feels good today so everyone has some kind of meds in them... Lets just say it is very QUIET right now so I thought I would write a blog about friends!!!

I am lucky enough to have lots and lots of friends but with that they are all different in there own ways..

1. I have had a best friend more like a (sister) for 20 years we have only had two major fights and when I say major that means we didn't talk for a couple of months, love her she Has always been there no matter what and her family is like my second family. I know when she is sad, happy, scared or worried I can tell her ANYTHING even if she doesn't like it and she understands. I don't have to say to much about her because she knows how much I love her!!

2. I have other friends that I would say are like my best friends because I care for them, I cry for them and I love them and would do anything in my power for them.. One is in Albuq she should know who she is I will see her in a couple weeks, and the rest are here in Amarillo I have been blessed to have found Two ladies here that I just love I couldn't ask for more with them they give till they can't give anymore they show love like I have never seen. They teach me everyday how I can be better I don't tell them this because that's really not me but I try really hard to show them yesterday I got to spend some time with them and just talk and laugh I love it there's no drama no fighting nothing just plain fun every time I am with them... I pray for them every night I love you two and you know who you are....

I just wrote about a couple but friends are the best you first start off getting to know each other to see if you get along and then you start some what of a relationship you hang out you talk and then you either know you can get along or you don't and that's okay if you don't not everyone has to be friends but when you find that you can even with being very different it's a wonderful thing. Friends are so important I think more for Women then Men when you know you can call and vent and you can cry till you can't speak anymore and they understand you can't ask for more..

You can laugh in till your sides hurt and no one less knows why your laughing but you and your friends that's great! I love that there are times when I am down and I feel as know one will tell but it never fails that my friends do. I feel God has put people in our lives for a reason! Because I always walk away saying Thank you Lord for My Friend's all I can say is if you have friendships like this you are a very lucky person...

I went RED!!

So I was tired of my black hair and yes it was real!!! So I went red and I love it its a dark red and its new and sassy just the way I like it. It seems I was stuck in Mommy mode and had to get out of that!! So me and my Best friend went and got our hair done here are some pics we took that day! What do you Think? I will have to take some outside so you can really see it..

love this

Author: Beckie M.


Once I had a heart of stone
For it had surley lost its home
It could not love or wanted too
But in my life, then came you.

The stones began to fall away
As happiness began to fill my day
A feeling so sweet and special too
Could this be love, I pray is true.

My heart now sings a song of love
For I know that it was sent from above
My heart is warm, there is no cold
Hard no more, but with wings of gold.

It soars above the sky so high
Sometimes I think of why and cry
My heart now sings a loving song
For the part of me I thought was gone.

The gift that you have given me
Is so important, can't you see
No more sadness or being alone
For now my heart returns to home.

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We did it baby....

So as many of you know we walked this last weekend for March For Babies, And I have to first say thanks to all that came to support My family and me.. As I look back on this month and all the memories that kept coming back all I wanted to do was break and give up. But there were many reason why I didn't~ first I had to do this to close that door and what I mean is I had to close the door on the hardship of everything that came with having my sweet son.. Second I had to let My Dad go and in saying that I mean I had to give him some peace knowing that I will see him again and I will be able to tell him all the things I didn't before his death. Third I Love my Family and friends so much I have learned that they are there to hold my hand and support me and my family and for that I am a very blessed women. Forth I was scared that I would not be able to finish that walk but right before we got started I looked at my Husband and said Jon if I get weak you are going to carry me the rest of the way. But I didn't need Jon to do it The Lord took me and walked with me every step I know this for sure because I was never weak at the end my feet started to hurt and it went away just like that...I even feel as though he carried me.

So I did the walk and now I can move on, I let my Father be at peace and for those two reason alone I am stronger... I don't tell My friends and family that I love them alot maybe that's to gray of a area for me but I do LOVE each and everyone! You took time out to either come and walk with us or you donated on line. Either way I felt more love then ever before. Just being their and seeing all the people we were arm and arm there was so many was a true blessing it's times like these when we see whats really important.

We only get one chance at this life and sometimes we need to just give in and ask for that help and in time we get our answers and what a wonderful thing that is....

Reach High Boys!!

You know as I sit here in peace at 11:38pm I get to thinking about my Kids and what it means to me to have them. As you Know Jadon turned 3 today and the wheels go round and round in my head. It's funny there is a saying that when a Daughter get's married the Mother gain's a Son but when a Son get's Married it's different.

I really hope this is not true I have found that I am very close to Jon's parents I call them Mom and The Dude so I haven't seen it happen yet, But When I look at my boys and we talk about what they want to be or what they want in life it makes me wonder like tonight at dinner Lorenzo said after he goes on his Mission he wants to go in the Army and I said no way~ Jon say's great support our country!

I do feel that because of the Men and Women that are out there we have our freedom but I ask myself what would I do without my son.. I can't go and check on him to make sure he's good or needs anything it's not like I can just go and see him anytime I want and that is scary to me. I know he is only 12 but he has been saying this for a long time now this is not the first we have talked about this. And the whole Dating thing what if I don't like the girl will I ever feel that someone will ever be good enough for my son's? I have so many hopes for my boys I hope and pray that they live right, that they go on a mission and find a great women have kids make a great husband and father Stay close to Jon and I.

I wonder does a parent ever really let go or do they just step back a little and hope for the best? I know I have a while to think about this but what would I be without my boys I can't answer that because no matter how different they are I know they were sent for me. Boy's are crazy and hard at time's but when they kiss me goodnight or tell me how pretty I am or say a prayer for me, or just grab my hand and say I love you Mom I melt.

I might be hard on the outside but I will tell you there are very few people in this world that can break me and those 3 boys can do it to me all the time. And I'm not talking about making me mad I am saying I would move the earth if I could for them, I would reach for every star if they asked. I just hope when the teen age years come that they know the Love I have for them will never be put into words! All I can say is for right now in this Moment I am a very Blessed Mother I thank our Father every night for what he has allowed me to have and I am very thankful.

Sometimes all it takes is for us to "Step back A Little" and see what we are blessed with and see who and what we are in this life, Why are we here what have we been asked to do? maybe it's as small as to "Count your blessings" ...

Happy Birthday My Little One...

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Happy Easter 2009

The Lord has blessed me I have 3 great boys and a wonderful husband, What else could a women ask for? So thank you Lord for these 4 Men in my life Happy Easter Everyone!!

What do you do??

Okay so what do you do when the kids have half of day of school and it's nice outside for once and you need a work out let me show you.... And this is only the front I did not do the back please this is more then a workout...And I am glad I did this on Friday because it rained all day on Sat. worked out great for us I bet the guys that were out there doing the same were thinking where's my wife she needs to help ROFL

The end of the hair story.....

So I went down there and let me just say I do really like the way that two girls in there cut my hair, I have a hair style that is very hard for some people to cut and I have been told that alot you either know what you are doing or you don't so when you find someone that does it just the way you want it you keep her,In saying that you would not think this would be a hard haircut with that said I really like the way the Manager cuts my hair and right when I walked in she knew who I was so that was good because since I have lived here I have been going there.

So when I walked in I thought I was going to see him and he was going to give me a bunch of crap which by the way I was ready for cause I was more then upset. But he was no where so I thought well maybe he's in the back waiting for us to go back there cause the Manager was cutting someone's hair so I had to wait but Nope I didn't see him so when she was done we walked in there break room and she had another lady with her just as a witness and I had to tell the story again so in this time another lady came back there and you should have saw their faces and the one gave me a hug and told me she was so sorry..

That made me feel better but I felt bad because it was not them it was him, so after that she told me she would fix it and give me my money back and if I didn't really like the way she cut my hair I would have said okay but I didn't want to make her pay for something she didn't do. Because I still want her to cut my hair so she fixed it and yes it's shorter but looks the same so I am happy but I have to keep going every 6 weeks in till it grows out because he layered the crap out of it.

But I came home washed it and did it and it looks the same so I am happy you can't see it after I do it. Ladies let me just say we have to start standing up for our self's when something like this happens all night I kept thinking why did I stay, why didn't I say something I am not one to just sit there but when I get my hair cut I don't say anything?

But I did my part today and what was funny is one of the ladies said that they got another call on him yesterday before I came in and this has happened before with him so I think she must have called him and said Don't come back In.... Which is what I wanted to happen do I feel bad he might have lost his job at this time (NO) that is his job to know what he is doing hair is not something you can just hide! And to put me down the way he did it just was not right, All night I felt ugly and wondered if what he said was what everyone thought so Good bye to the bad hair dresser guy!!!!!

Update on my Hair...

So I was so mad and that was the only thing I could think of all night I was up till 4am just thinking back to everything he said, So I got up at like 8:30am and called and The Manager and she told me to come in at 10 am when he would be there and that this was not the first time she has gotten calls about him. So I said yeah I will come back because at this point someone needs to fix it and he needs to know to keep his mouth shut. So anyone that knows me this is not going to be pretty but I have to stand up and say something so in less then a half an hour I will be telling it like it is and we will see what happens this should be good! Do I want to do this with him no but then again I want to wear a hat now because I hate my hair!!!! She said well I will give you your money back and I said at this point you can try and FIX my hair the best you can I don't want the money that's not going to bring my hair back (Hello) so we will see what happens...