A New Year!!!

So here we are a new year is going to start every time a year ends and a new one comes I always think of what I would like to change, or maybe do better at. I do know that I will get back into the gym and lose this extra weight that has been a part of me for far to long! Second i want to be and better wife and mother and even a better friend. I lack in these area's and I hope this new year will be better for everyone. This last Christmas was a very hard one for me and I was forced to see things in a different way and one of those was my Husband My rock, My best friend I have lacked in letting him know just how much I love him and how lucky I am for the men in my life. So I will learn to do better in 2009 I hope. I can only ask the Lord for help in this so that I will be a better person. I will start to see the gray area that I so often fail to see. I will be more supportive to everyone in my life but in saying that I also will cross over the bridges that need to be crossed letting go of things that I don't need, letting go of the old and in with the New!
I hope that all my friends have a great New Year and I would say to all look around you and the people that stand before you are all you need. The House all the nice things can be gone at any time but the people you see will forever be in your life or in your heart nothing can take that away. I use to say home was where my family was but that is so not true Home is where my husband and boys are! I love my family but at the end of the day Jon and my boys are always there they don't check out when it gets hard, they don't stop loving me when I'm in a bad mood. This is what I thank God for, for letting me have another year with them and with the one's I love. So now that I have said that I ask that everyone Have A SAFE but fun New Year!!!! This is us (missing a slepping baby) saying bye,bye 2008 and Hello 2009

Wow

I can't believe how this year has gone so fast next May we would be here 2 years I just looked at the picture i put up of my boys and I just thought wow look how big they have each become. I know I'm having a mommy moment but really in Jan Lorenzo will be 12yrs in April Jadon will be 3 and in June Kiera will be 10yrs Jonathan will be 8 in oct. and in Nov. kylie will be 12 yrs all these ages mean something special in our church. And in my heart I am so very blessed to have my husband, my best friends my children, families I have so much to be thankful for and it shouldn't take me this time of the year to say all of this but when Christmas comes I get very emotional as the year end's and a new one starts it hits home. I hope all of you that read this have a safe, wonderful Christmas full of love and happiness..

Love The Newman family

I want to talk about me,me,me (it's a song)

So we just went over to our friends home tonight to have a white elephant exchange -party and I have to say we had so much fun.. I was thinking so bare with me since we have moved back here we have found Great friends that we love and adore not that i don't miss my friends in Albuq and you know who you are!! But when we are with these friends I feel they bring out the best in me and Jon. It's really hard sometimes to be away from family and friends and sometime I get Home sick and other time's I'm glad I'm not there for different reason's But I have been thinking alot about Me I'm not the easiest person to get along with I have alot of flaws and I have only one way I look at things, and that's where all my friends come in to play each of them play a different roll in my life and it has made me a better and some what stronger person. I always thought I was strong and it didn't matter if you liked me or not but I have to say I kinda do care, see if you really know me I either Love you with all that I am or I either dislike you there is never a gray area and I find myself feeling different about that. I have friends in my life that bring out my best and I love that and they all show me how there is a gray area and how I need to see from someone else's eye's not only mine. We all walk on different path's in life and we all feel different in some way but in the last 2 years I feel like I have found the person that I want to be. What a great feeling to know who you are and who you wish to be it has taken along time to find me and be okay with that and I am more then okay! God puts us all in place's we need to be either to learn or to teach and I feel like I have done both! It's not so easy for me but I have let my walls come down and it's nights like this that I love my friends even more.... I could name each and everyone of them but I feel like I don't have to because they know who they are.And I thank each and everyone of them for making me a better person and a better friend.. And to my friends that are not here I love you all and miss you more then you know and I wouldn't give one second of our friendship away. And yes I'm being really sweet and soft right now like I said bare with me cause It doesn't come very often... Love ya girls