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We did it baby....

So as many of you know we walked this last weekend for March For Babies, And I have to first say thanks to all that came to support My family and me.. As I look back on this month and all the memories that kept coming back all I wanted to do was break and give up. But there were many reason why I didn't~ first I had to do this to close that door and what I mean is I had to close the door on the hardship of everything that came with having my sweet son.. Second I had to let My Dad go and in saying that I mean I had to give him some peace knowing that I will see him again and I will be able to tell him all the things I didn't before his death. Third I Love my Family and friends so much I have learned that they are there to hold my hand and support me and my family and for that I am a very blessed women. Forth I was scared that I would not be able to finish that walk but right before we got started I looked at my Husband and said Jon if I get weak you are going to carry me the rest of the way. But I didn't need Jon to do it The Lord took me and walked with me every step I know this for sure because I was never weak at the end my feet started to hurt and it went away just like that...I even feel as though he carried me.

So I did the walk and now I can move on, I let my Father be at peace and for those two reason alone I am stronger... I don't tell My friends and family that I love them alot maybe that's to gray of a area for me but I do LOVE each and everyone! You took time out to either come and walk with us or you donated on line. Either way I felt more love then ever before. Just being their and seeing all the people we were arm and arm there was so many was a true blessing it's times like these when we see whats really important.

We only get one chance at this life and sometimes we need to just give in and ask for that help and in time we get our answers and what a wonderful thing that is....

Reach High Boys!!

You know as I sit here in peace at 11:38pm I get to thinking about my Kids and what it means to me to have them. As you Know Jadon turned 3 today and the wheels go round and round in my head. It's funny there is a saying that when a Daughter get's married the Mother gain's a Son but when a Son get's Married it's different.

I really hope this is not true I have found that I am very close to Jon's parents I call them Mom and The Dude so I haven't seen it happen yet, But When I look at my boys and we talk about what they want to be or what they want in life it makes me wonder like tonight at dinner Lorenzo said after he goes on his Mission he wants to go in the Army and I said no way~ Jon say's great support our country!

I do feel that because of the Men and Women that are out there we have our freedom but I ask myself what would I do without my son.. I can't go and check on him to make sure he's good or needs anything it's not like I can just go and see him anytime I want and that is scary to me. I know he is only 12 but he has been saying this for a long time now this is not the first we have talked about this. And the whole Dating thing what if I don't like the girl will I ever feel that someone will ever be good enough for my son's? I have so many hopes for my boys I hope and pray that they live right, that they go on a mission and find a great women have kids make a great husband and father Stay close to Jon and I.

I wonder does a parent ever really let go or do they just step back a little and hope for the best? I know I have a while to think about this but what would I be without my boys I can't answer that because no matter how different they are I know they were sent for me. Boy's are crazy and hard at time's but when they kiss me goodnight or tell me how pretty I am or say a prayer for me, or just grab my hand and say I love you Mom I melt.

I might be hard on the outside but I will tell you there are very few people in this world that can break me and those 3 boys can do it to me all the time. And I'm not talking about making me mad I am saying I would move the earth if I could for them, I would reach for every star if they asked. I just hope when the teen age years come that they know the Love I have for them will never be put into words! All I can say is for right now in this Moment I am a very Blessed Mother I thank our Father every night for what he has allowed me to have and I am very thankful.

Sometimes all it takes is for us to "Step back A Little" and see what we are blessed with and see who and what we are in this life, Why are we here what have we been asked to do? maybe it's as small as to "Count your blessings" ...

Happy Birthday My Little One...

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Happy Easter 2009

The Lord has blessed me I have 3 great boys and a wonderful husband, What else could a women ask for? So thank you Lord for these 4 Men in my life Happy Easter Everyone!!

What do you do??

Okay so what do you do when the kids have half of day of school and it's nice outside for once and you need a work out let me show you.... And this is only the front I did not do the back please this is more then a workout...And I am glad I did this on Friday because it rained all day on Sat. worked out great for us I bet the guys that were out there doing the same were thinking where's my wife she needs to help ROFL

The end of the hair story.....

So I went down there and let me just say I do really like the way that two girls in there cut my hair, I have a hair style that is very hard for some people to cut and I have been told that alot you either know what you are doing or you don't so when you find someone that does it just the way you want it you keep her,In saying that you would not think this would be a hard haircut with that said I really like the way the Manager cuts my hair and right when I walked in she knew who I was so that was good because since I have lived here I have been going there.

So when I walked in I thought I was going to see him and he was going to give me a bunch of crap which by the way I was ready for cause I was more then upset. But he was no where so I thought well maybe he's in the back waiting for us to go back there cause the Manager was cutting someone's hair so I had to wait but Nope I didn't see him so when she was done we walked in there break room and she had another lady with her just as a witness and I had to tell the story again so in this time another lady came back there and you should have saw their faces and the one gave me a hug and told me she was so sorry..

That made me feel better but I felt bad because it was not them it was him, so after that she told me she would fix it and give me my money back and if I didn't really like the way she cut my hair I would have said okay but I didn't want to make her pay for something she didn't do. Because I still want her to cut my hair so she fixed it and yes it's shorter but looks the same so I am happy but I have to keep going every 6 weeks in till it grows out because he layered the crap out of it.

But I came home washed it and did it and it looks the same so I am happy you can't see it after I do it. Ladies let me just say we have to start standing up for our self's when something like this happens all night I kept thinking why did I stay, why didn't I say something I am not one to just sit there but when I get my hair cut I don't say anything?

But I did my part today and what was funny is one of the ladies said that they got another call on him yesterday before I came in and this has happened before with him so I think she must have called him and said Don't come back In.... Which is what I wanted to happen do I feel bad he might have lost his job at this time (NO) that is his job to know what he is doing hair is not something you can just hide! And to put me down the way he did it just was not right, All night I felt ugly and wondered if what he said was what everyone thought so Good bye to the bad hair dresser guy!!!!!

Update on my Hair...

So I was so mad and that was the only thing I could think of all night I was up till 4am just thinking back to everything he said, So I got up at like 8:30am and called and The Manager and she told me to come in at 10 am when he would be there and that this was not the first time she has gotten calls about him. So I said yeah I will come back because at this point someone needs to fix it and he needs to know to keep his mouth shut. So anyone that knows me this is not going to be pretty but I have to stand up and say something so in less then a half an hour I will be telling it like it is and we will see what happens this should be good! Do I want to do this with him no but then again I want to wear a hat now because I hate my hair!!!! She said well I will give you your money back and I said at this point you can try and FIX my hair the best you can I don't want the money that's not going to bring my hair back (Hello) so we will see what happens...

Time to Vent......

So today I went to go get a TRIM on my hair, A TRIM but did that happen NO! I went in where I always go and have always walked out happy not today, today I walked in and they called my name I was all happy just to get a TRIM so I sit down at a guys chair which he has never cut my hair and I haven't seen him before but it was okay cause you know how that works there in and there out no big deal. So anyway I sit down and he starts to tell me about my hair color ( WHAT) he even went as far to ask me if I was Goth??? I was like no I am 50* Mexican sorry my skin is white and my hair is dark,

but here's the deal over this past year I have been trying to make my hair lighter because I hate that it is so dark. And Let me just say he was not a quiet talker which was very embarrassing I can not help that my hair is so black it goes gray and then he starts to cut my hair and I know everyone is wondering why I even stayed and i don't have a answer for that so like I said he starts to cut and let's just say it was NOT A TRIM and then I told him I want side bangs and told him which side he then tells me oh no I'm not going to do that and plus it looks better on the other side. So he puts my hair to the other side and does something to it and he starts again how I am to cheap to get my hair colored from a pro that I have to buy the box kind and it doesn't look good!!!!

I felt like knocking him OUT but at this point I just wanted to leave thank Goodness it's only hair and it will grow back but I am NOT happy if he is so good then why is he at Pro- CUTS. I came in to get a trim and I walked out feeling like crap because now I feel like everyone must be like WOW look how white she is and her hair is so dark she must do that.. He is not the only hair dresser that has said this before but let me just set this straight I have JET BLACK hair always have always will color does not take well to my hair because it is so dark my mom had the same color and she was gray at 18.

But why do I feel the need to say this ~ on one end I could care less what people think about my skin or my hair but it still hurts. Let's just say I can relate to my dear friend Lynsey when she was upset about her hair cut! I am with you all the way girl and I am so sorry I didn't feel your pain then.So I ask when you see me please don't bring it up cause I hate it and it will just make me mad all over again. and there will be no pics in till this grows out the way I want it.( Oh well when I say no pics I mean of my hair) I just can't get over some people what gives them the right to say these things what if my hair wasn't black and I liked it that way is he saying sorry but it doesn't look good?? Some people have no Class keep your opinions to yourself BUTTHEAD...... okay I'm done now I'm sure all my friends what to know what it looks like sorry you will just have to wait.