Jonathan Turn's 8

So Oct 16 has come and my Jonathan turns 8yrs old oh what a wonderful thing he is so happy he went and talked to the Bishop last night and came home with a smile from ear to ear... We asked him who he wants to talk and he asked Lorenzo and I and I looked at Lorenzo thinking no way will he want to but nope he looked at Jonathan and said ok.. I was happy no one looked at me because I had tears in my eyes!! After Jonathan we will only have Jadon left that will be 4 down 1 to go crazy when you think of it Jon has done all of our's even mine! What a wonderful feeling jonathan can't wait and it just brings me back to my day when I got to do the same thing. So I will make cupcakes as asked by jonathan for his class then make a cake asked my jonathan... And then make him wheatever he wants for dinner crazy but it is his day Oh how this sweet little boys brings me so much joy and yes some pain lol but I love his hugs and kisses and I love you mom. So Happy Birthday to Him.....

OCD

Okay so it's been awhile since I have wrote a post so here it goes so this last weekend I went to Albuq for my Best Friends Birthday and to help my mom with my dad. I had a really good time but I didn't sleep so well so when I came home I was burned out. But the funny thing is my truck was just fine coming home in till the next day it was acting alittle off so I drop Jonathan off in the morning then pick him up. Every things okay in till I go to get Lorenzo and it wont start nothing it's dead~ well come to find out my battery is gone. If God was not watching over me then I don't know what would have happened I could have been stuck on the side of the road somewhere and my phone could or could not have worked.

So we got that fixed and then out of No where Jadon becomes sick well come to find out he has the Swine Flu with a 102.2 fever last night now some might say well its going to happen and everything will be okay and yes I think it well be Jon gave him a great blessing last night and I cried it was so good, but I get so scared not only for my other children but for Jadon I just can't seem to get over that he is a big and healthy boy now I still see him as 2 lbs but he is far from it.....

So what did I do today well I cleaned and cleaned to the point that my hands are dry every time one of the kids or even me and Jon get sick I get in this mode of OCD and I wont stop in till I feel every inch is clean now I don't know if that's good or bad but it makes me feel better! Some times I even wonder if I clean enough or did I do something wrong or not enough to keep them from getting sick.....

Oh how my mind works I know kids get sick and it's no big deal but I hate to watch my babies like that and plus I can't get sick my body will not fight anything off it fights itself. So as of right now we are all staying in till everything is back to normal.. And I know if you have ever been to my house I'm sure you guys are going oh my goodness but I have this thing about everything being where it should and just plain CLEAN....

Where Have I been??

Man oh man it has been forever since I have put any blogs up I use to do this all the time but I got on facebook and those games have me hooked. So what is New in the Newman home well lets see The Boys started back at school so I only have Jadon which is nice in till the boys come home then the fights start, Lorenzo is now in football and Loves it and Daddy is in heaven just watching Lorenzo and Jon makes me smile.. He is now in Jr high which i can't get past he's not little anymore where has the time gone? Jonathan (little) is now in 2ND grade and loves that he will be 8 on Oct. 16Th so we will looking forward to that we asked him the other day who he would like to speak the day he gets baptized and he said you Mom and you Lorenzo and it just made my heart smile, Lorenzo just looked up at his younger brother and said ok I will... those sweet little moments remind me of how much love I have for my boys... Mr. Jadon oh my he is talking up a storm and is getting into everything you know there was a time when I thought jadon would always be small well I was soooooo wrong he is not my baby any more he is wearing a size 4 already. I just don't know why life seems to be going by so fast I mean my kids are getting big and Jon and I are going on 10 yrs it's all so crazy! All I know is I am one happy Mother and Wife!

As far as me I will be going to school for photography soon and I can't wait and on top of that Jon's father has asked me to start a web page and run it for him I was shocked but I can work right here at home... My dreams are all coming true I can be a stay at home Mother and work what else could I ask for.

Mr. Jon well he is hard at work and getting ready for the holidays to start this is always the busiest months for him but he wouldn't have it any other way. And like I said he is Lorenzo's biggest fan right now it's like he has passed the torch to his oldest son..

Here's some pics of the boys this year..

My Mother always said...

My Mother would always say wait in till you have your own Children, I always wondered what she meant.. Oh how I wish I was a better daughter lol I always knew I wanted my first to be a boy and there was Lorenzo, then I wanted to have a girl out came Jonathan okay lets try one more time Girl? Nope Here came Jadon(way to fast)! But after I had my first I asked my Mother how can I love anyone else like I love him? She said it will just come you can do it, So when Jonathan came I asked the Lord please help me I don't know how to love these two boys the same then I realized I didn't have to love them the same all I had to do was love them with every inch of me. And then Jadon I cry sometimes because the Love I have for these three little boys is so strong and so real it some times hurts This Love is like no other!And I also know why I have these boys and what I have learned there is a reason for everything and I know without them I would be nothing. And now I know how our Father In Heaven feels with all of us....

Lorenzo...

So here is lorenzo going from 6th grade to 7th man my boy did so good I don't know if I could have had anymore kids because its to hard now not to cry everytime I see my boys accomplish their goals with not only school but with Church. I told Jon when I watched lorenzo come in for the awards I wanted to just break down I could tell my once little son was scared, Last year he took the TAKS Test 3 times before passing and that was so hard to watch...Mind you they don't teach the same things in Albuq,NM so Lorenzo was unsure of what these TAKS test were about.

So when it came to this year he was determined to pass the first time!!! And let me just say I loved all three of his teachers they not only helped lorenzo but they were always in contact with me which was great. So we walked in me and Jadon and my best friend and his home room teacher comes up to me and hugs me and tells me how lorenzo did he was ONE point from getting a, A in Math TAKS test and ONE point away from being on Honor Roll.. We both started to cry she said that because I cared so much and supported everything they were doing with him it payed off. And I say WE all did those teachers went beyond there duties to help Lorenzo! And he DID it he got a, A in reading TASKS TEST and like I said one point away from all A's.....

So as I watched him because he did not know anything I wanted to run and grab him and say "YOU DID IT" all you baby... so as my tears came and I watched them call his name I looked in my son's eyes and he knew how proud I was and thats all he needed was to see how happy I was for him... So after the awards we went to get his folder and hugged his teacher once more and she said how proud and happy she was for him, we started to walk away and I stopped and said I loved him and how happy I was for him. He looked up at me with tears in his and said "Mom I did good I did really good" And all I could do was hug him with tears rolling down my face.

As I realize he's not my Baby any more....I ask myself if I can do this 2 more times with my other boys and two more times with Jon's Girls.. People want to know where my weak spots are. All you have to do is look at these 3 boys and one Guy in this house and then you will know! Way to GO my RENZO!!

Let us Open Our Eyes

This is something we should all read at least once a week
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me... It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled
over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ’In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
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Remember that I will always share my spoon with you! Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves!

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"May you love as long as you live and live as long as you love"

So the Big news

Jon was called to be the 2ND Counselor in the Bishopric today I was in tears and so were his parents I was so proud to see him up there right before they told him to go sit up there I asked him if he was scared and he said yes.. Now if you know Jon he is not one to get scared about much of anything, but this was one of those things that he felt he was not ready for..

Let me just say this (and by no means is this because he is my husband) Jon is such a big loving person, with a heart of gold he would do anything for anyone without question he See's so many things that I overlook and he is my rock, soul mate and best friend and I know that Our Father put him where he should be...

Jon's parents came so that his Dad could do all the stuff after and I cried, bishop, his Mother, his Dad and Jon and there was some other people in there.Jon being the only Brother in his family to go on to a Mission or be active in anyway I'm sure you could understand how his parents felt, When they were doing this I went and sat by Jon's Mother and held her hand and we cried together.

Many people just see this as oh well he is just 2ND Counselor but I see it as growth and faith and the love and blessing that Jon has been given! I knew when I met him that he was great guy but each day that goes by makes me love him more and more what a great example he is to our kids the boys were so happy!

So as I watch my oldest past sacrament each Sunday and now watch my Husband sitting beside the Bishop I realize how lucky I really am.. And we should all count them one by one!

They Did so GOOD!!

This year has been a good one I have a wonderful family and great kids, This year is one for the books and it's not even over yet.. So many great things have happened first as you all know we walked for Jadon in the March of Dimes for the 1st time and that was crazy but most rewarding ever..

Then The boys did so good in school this year Lorenzo PASSED his TAKS tests on the first try so off to 7Th grade oh my Goodness and he had his last Band Concert last Wednesday which he was great in! Jonathan got Honor Roll and was in the news paper and A Good Citizenship Award, Next week will be Lorenzo's Awards. Jadon well he talks alot (just like me) and let's just say he is healthy and smart but I have learned that three's are just as hard as two's.... Jon well he has A new Calling but I can't say till Sunday! But I will say I am so very proud of him he has come along away and although Jon thinks he is not the right person I feel different Jon is the most loving, kind a gentle man I know he is My Best Friend and I will always stand beside him in all the things that come along.

As for me well I'm learning more and more about my illness and learning what to do and what not to do so that's good they are putting me on new meds Oh how I hope they work and I went to RED yes my hair is red and I love it... And next week Jon and I are off For Cali with our friends John and Stacey for a week this year we will be married 10yrs so that is our gift to each other since I am the only one that has never been there I can't wait!!! So you know I will have lots and lots of pics. But here are some pics for now Jon's parents are coming today so we are very happy more pics to come on Sunday!!!!!

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Friends...

So today is cold windy and dark and lots of rain (love these days) but everyone in the house is either napping or playing in there rooms no one feels good today so everyone has some kind of meds in them... Lets just say it is very QUIET right now so I thought I would write a blog about friends!!!

I am lucky enough to have lots and lots of friends but with that they are all different in there own ways..

1. I have had a best friend more like a (sister) for 20 years we have only had two major fights and when I say major that means we didn't talk for a couple of months, love her she Has always been there no matter what and her family is like my second family. I know when she is sad, happy, scared or worried I can tell her ANYTHING even if she doesn't like it and she understands. I don't have to say to much about her because she knows how much I love her!!

2. I have other friends that I would say are like my best friends because I care for them, I cry for them and I love them and would do anything in my power for them.. One is in Albuq she should know who she is I will see her in a couple weeks, and the rest are here in Amarillo I have been blessed to have found Two ladies here that I just love I couldn't ask for more with them they give till they can't give anymore they show love like I have never seen. They teach me everyday how I can be better I don't tell them this because that's really not me but I try really hard to show them yesterday I got to spend some time with them and just talk and laugh I love it there's no drama no fighting nothing just plain fun every time I am with them... I pray for them every night I love you two and you know who you are....

I just wrote about a couple but friends are the best you first start off getting to know each other to see if you get along and then you start some what of a relationship you hang out you talk and then you either know you can get along or you don't and that's okay if you don't not everyone has to be friends but when you find that you can even with being very different it's a wonderful thing. Friends are so important I think more for Women then Men when you know you can call and vent and you can cry till you can't speak anymore and they understand you can't ask for more..

You can laugh in till your sides hurt and no one less knows why your laughing but you and your friends that's great! I love that there are times when I am down and I feel as know one will tell but it never fails that my friends do. I feel God has put people in our lives for a reason! Because I always walk away saying Thank you Lord for My Friend's all I can say is if you have friendships like this you are a very lucky person...

I went RED!!

So I was tired of my black hair and yes it was real!!! So I went red and I love it its a dark red and its new and sassy just the way I like it. It seems I was stuck in Mommy mode and had to get out of that!! So me and my Best friend went and got our hair done here are some pics we took that day! What do you Think? I will have to take some outside so you can really see it..

love this

Author: Beckie M.


Once I had a heart of stone
For it had surley lost its home
It could not love or wanted too
But in my life, then came you.

The stones began to fall away
As happiness began to fill my day
A feeling so sweet and special too
Could this be love, I pray is true.

My heart now sings a song of love
For I know that it was sent from above
My heart is warm, there is no cold
Hard no more, but with wings of gold.

It soars above the sky so high
Sometimes I think of why and cry
My heart now sings a loving song
For the part of me I thought was gone.

The gift that you have given me
Is so important, can't you see
No more sadness or being alone
For now my heart returns to home.

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We did it baby....

So as many of you know we walked this last weekend for March For Babies, And I have to first say thanks to all that came to support My family and me.. As I look back on this month and all the memories that kept coming back all I wanted to do was break and give up. But there were many reason why I didn't~ first I had to do this to close that door and what I mean is I had to close the door on the hardship of everything that came with having my sweet son.. Second I had to let My Dad go and in saying that I mean I had to give him some peace knowing that I will see him again and I will be able to tell him all the things I didn't before his death. Third I Love my Family and friends so much I have learned that they are there to hold my hand and support me and my family and for that I am a very blessed women. Forth I was scared that I would not be able to finish that walk but right before we got started I looked at my Husband and said Jon if I get weak you are going to carry me the rest of the way. But I didn't need Jon to do it The Lord took me and walked with me every step I know this for sure because I was never weak at the end my feet started to hurt and it went away just like that...I even feel as though he carried me.

So I did the walk and now I can move on, I let my Father be at peace and for those two reason alone I am stronger... I don't tell My friends and family that I love them alot maybe that's to gray of a area for me but I do LOVE each and everyone! You took time out to either come and walk with us or you donated on line. Either way I felt more love then ever before. Just being their and seeing all the people we were arm and arm there was so many was a true blessing it's times like these when we see whats really important.

We only get one chance at this life and sometimes we need to just give in and ask for that help and in time we get our answers and what a wonderful thing that is....

Reach High Boys!!

You know as I sit here in peace at 11:38pm I get to thinking about my Kids and what it means to me to have them. As you Know Jadon turned 3 today and the wheels go round and round in my head. It's funny there is a saying that when a Daughter get's married the Mother gain's a Son but when a Son get's Married it's different.

I really hope this is not true I have found that I am very close to Jon's parents I call them Mom and The Dude so I haven't seen it happen yet, But When I look at my boys and we talk about what they want to be or what they want in life it makes me wonder like tonight at dinner Lorenzo said after he goes on his Mission he wants to go in the Army and I said no way~ Jon say's great support our country!

I do feel that because of the Men and Women that are out there we have our freedom but I ask myself what would I do without my son.. I can't go and check on him to make sure he's good or needs anything it's not like I can just go and see him anytime I want and that is scary to me. I know he is only 12 but he has been saying this for a long time now this is not the first we have talked about this. And the whole Dating thing what if I don't like the girl will I ever feel that someone will ever be good enough for my son's? I have so many hopes for my boys I hope and pray that they live right, that they go on a mission and find a great women have kids make a great husband and father Stay close to Jon and I.

I wonder does a parent ever really let go or do they just step back a little and hope for the best? I know I have a while to think about this but what would I be without my boys I can't answer that because no matter how different they are I know they were sent for me. Boy's are crazy and hard at time's but when they kiss me goodnight or tell me how pretty I am or say a prayer for me, or just grab my hand and say I love you Mom I melt.

I might be hard on the outside but I will tell you there are very few people in this world that can break me and those 3 boys can do it to me all the time. And I'm not talking about making me mad I am saying I would move the earth if I could for them, I would reach for every star if they asked. I just hope when the teen age years come that they know the Love I have for them will never be put into words! All I can say is for right now in this Moment I am a very Blessed Mother I thank our Father every night for what he has allowed me to have and I am very thankful.

Sometimes all it takes is for us to "Step back A Little" and see what we are blessed with and see who and what we are in this life, Why are we here what have we been asked to do? maybe it's as small as to "Count your blessings" ...

Happy Birthday My Little One...

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Happy Easter 2009

The Lord has blessed me I have 3 great boys and a wonderful husband, What else could a women ask for? So thank you Lord for these 4 Men in my life Happy Easter Everyone!!

What do you do??

Okay so what do you do when the kids have half of day of school and it's nice outside for once and you need a work out let me show you.... And this is only the front I did not do the back please this is more then a workout...And I am glad I did this on Friday because it rained all day on Sat. worked out great for us I bet the guys that were out there doing the same were thinking where's my wife she needs to help ROFL

The end of the hair story.....

So I went down there and let me just say I do really like the way that two girls in there cut my hair, I have a hair style that is very hard for some people to cut and I have been told that alot you either know what you are doing or you don't so when you find someone that does it just the way you want it you keep her,In saying that you would not think this would be a hard haircut with that said I really like the way the Manager cuts my hair and right when I walked in she knew who I was so that was good because since I have lived here I have been going there.

So when I walked in I thought I was going to see him and he was going to give me a bunch of crap which by the way I was ready for cause I was more then upset. But he was no where so I thought well maybe he's in the back waiting for us to go back there cause the Manager was cutting someone's hair so I had to wait but Nope I didn't see him so when she was done we walked in there break room and she had another lady with her just as a witness and I had to tell the story again so in this time another lady came back there and you should have saw their faces and the one gave me a hug and told me she was so sorry..

That made me feel better but I felt bad because it was not them it was him, so after that she told me she would fix it and give me my money back and if I didn't really like the way she cut my hair I would have said okay but I didn't want to make her pay for something she didn't do. Because I still want her to cut my hair so she fixed it and yes it's shorter but looks the same so I am happy but I have to keep going every 6 weeks in till it grows out because he layered the crap out of it.

But I came home washed it and did it and it looks the same so I am happy you can't see it after I do it. Ladies let me just say we have to start standing up for our self's when something like this happens all night I kept thinking why did I stay, why didn't I say something I am not one to just sit there but when I get my hair cut I don't say anything?

But I did my part today and what was funny is one of the ladies said that they got another call on him yesterday before I came in and this has happened before with him so I think she must have called him and said Don't come back In.... Which is what I wanted to happen do I feel bad he might have lost his job at this time (NO) that is his job to know what he is doing hair is not something you can just hide! And to put me down the way he did it just was not right, All night I felt ugly and wondered if what he said was what everyone thought so Good bye to the bad hair dresser guy!!!!!

Update on my Hair...

So I was so mad and that was the only thing I could think of all night I was up till 4am just thinking back to everything he said, So I got up at like 8:30am and called and The Manager and she told me to come in at 10 am when he would be there and that this was not the first time she has gotten calls about him. So I said yeah I will come back because at this point someone needs to fix it and he needs to know to keep his mouth shut. So anyone that knows me this is not going to be pretty but I have to stand up and say something so in less then a half an hour I will be telling it like it is and we will see what happens this should be good! Do I want to do this with him no but then again I want to wear a hat now because I hate my hair!!!! She said well I will give you your money back and I said at this point you can try and FIX my hair the best you can I don't want the money that's not going to bring my hair back (Hello) so we will see what happens...

Time to Vent......

So today I went to go get a TRIM on my hair, A TRIM but did that happen NO! I went in where I always go and have always walked out happy not today, today I walked in and they called my name I was all happy just to get a TRIM so I sit down at a guys chair which he has never cut my hair and I haven't seen him before but it was okay cause you know how that works there in and there out no big deal. So anyway I sit down and he starts to tell me about my hair color ( WHAT) he even went as far to ask me if I was Goth??? I was like no I am 50* Mexican sorry my skin is white and my hair is dark,

but here's the deal over this past year I have been trying to make my hair lighter because I hate that it is so dark. And Let me just say he was not a quiet talker which was very embarrassing I can not help that my hair is so black it goes gray and then he starts to cut my hair and I know everyone is wondering why I even stayed and i don't have a answer for that so like I said he starts to cut and let's just say it was NOT A TRIM and then I told him I want side bangs and told him which side he then tells me oh no I'm not going to do that and plus it looks better on the other side. So he puts my hair to the other side and does something to it and he starts again how I am to cheap to get my hair colored from a pro that I have to buy the box kind and it doesn't look good!!!!

I felt like knocking him OUT but at this point I just wanted to leave thank Goodness it's only hair and it will grow back but I am NOT happy if he is so good then why is he at Pro- CUTS. I came in to get a trim and I walked out feeling like crap because now I feel like everyone must be like WOW look how white she is and her hair is so dark she must do that.. He is not the only hair dresser that has said this before but let me just set this straight I have JET BLACK hair always have always will color does not take well to my hair because it is so dark my mom had the same color and she was gray at 18.

But why do I feel the need to say this ~ on one end I could care less what people think about my skin or my hair but it still hurts. Let's just say I can relate to my dear friend Lynsey when she was upset about her hair cut! I am with you all the way girl and I am so sorry I didn't feel your pain then.So I ask when you see me please don't bring it up cause I hate it and it will just make me mad all over again. and there will be no pics in till this grows out the way I want it.( Oh well when I say no pics I mean of my hair) I just can't get over some people what gives them the right to say these things what if my hair wasn't black and I liked it that way is he saying sorry but it doesn't look good?? Some people have no Class keep your opinions to yourself BUTTHEAD...... okay I'm done now I'm sure all my friends what to know what it looks like sorry you will just have to wait.

4Jadon ( It's April walk for these babies)

25 DAYS left until the walk

Event location: Thompson Park, NE 24th St. & Highway 287, Amarillo
Date: April 25, 2009
Time: 10:00 AM
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one day... all babies will be born healthy

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And to think It's almost April...

So here is what is going on in good old Amarillo,TX don't you just love it, It's 24* but they say with the wind it feels like 7* (nice) love these days when were stuck in the house.. They say by Sunday it will be back up to high 60's Now I know why everyone is sick....

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I need your help!!!!

Okay to all my friends I need your help today I am starting again to workout and eat right last time I did this I did lose weight and I felt so much better I am going to turn 33 yrs old this July and I don't want to spend my Birthday wishing I was smaller so here's the deal as many of you know ALL my FRIENDS here Bake GREAT things all the time and let me just say it is very hard to say no to all of the goodies. So In saying that I will ask you if you will help me if we are together and I want to go eat fast food say "Stacy how much do you want to lose" And I will get it and stop. You will not hurt my feelings what so ever you are helping me because It is very hard to do it alone I have to many friends here that are thin and so I need help.... If I bring stuff to your house that only I can eat please don't be mad I love your food but I am really on a mission to lose weight before I go to CA !! Ten yrs with Jon you would think I would like to be hott but I have gained so much since we first met and this will be a gift for both of us. I know Jon says he could care less but I do it has been very hard to keep the weight off alot of my meds don't help either but the truth being is I have to be willing and able to do this and I know I can. I just need my friends to back me up on this and if it's a nice day let's take a walk...Other wise I will be at the Gym taking dance classes which I can't wait to start this week...So pray for me and please help me to get to my goal!I will even show you a before which means after Lorenzo and when we got married and middle after Jonathan and now... Just so everyone can see for them self's because I know my friends will say I look fine but the pics will say it all...I am a brave women i tell you

You Know when Life is Good...

Let me just say I have alot of friends some that come and go and ones that touch your life forever..I do believe God helps in this area, with the timing and where and how. I have come to see that these friends are not only friends but family, I would lay my life down for them and what a great feeling to know that these same friends will always be in my heart forever I have grown to love so many and they know who they are! Being in Amarillo with no family you make due with what you have and the blessings that come out of that and these are mine.

1. Great Friends
2. Love my house
3. more time with my family (my Husband and my boys)
4. No Drama just good time's

These are just a few but when you don't have family you make family where you are I think of my friends as family like sister's and brother's.. I love the fact that It's just Jon and Me there's no family issue's or drama that happens. I love being alone with him and my boys when ever I feel like it, I love that My friends are his friends and we are happy and in good health I love our ward, I love the green grass and the cows I see every morning I drop Jonathan off for school, I love the schools the boys go to! I love that everything is so close and for the most part the people here are nice and it's small enough for me. There are so many things we are blessed with and I feel we need to look more at that then what we are not blessed with. I have a man that Love's me like no other I have three strong and happy boys and two step- daughters. I have a family that Love's me and not just mine but Jon's to. But I can be here alone and be just as happy because where Jon and my kids are is HOME! So to my friends I love you girls and thanks for putting up with me lol... And the ones that don't live here you know where your place is in my heart!

~ME~

My Family

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

So as many of you that know me I take lots and lots of pics of my boys but as I see it they already grow up way to fast and I am going to have all these great moments to look back on.. And when I am gone my boys will be able to see these to and see that I loved them with every part of me..So just a Quick update we gave a talk on Sunday and it was Lorenzo's first and he did great I was so proud to be his Mother.. He is getting so big and I know he will keep getting taller soon he's going to be looking down on me..

Jonathan will be 8 yrs old in Oct and he just lost his first tooth about 2 weeks ago he was so happy and to wake up and get a dollar oh my that was BIG Deal.

Little Jadon well I guess I shouldn't be saying little anymore next month he will be 3yrs where does the time go? He is finding himself I should say he talks more and more and that's a good and Bad thing. He had his first blooding nose at Church a little boy punched him but he was fine. When you live in a house with two older brother's I think you get use to it..

As for Jon and I we will hit our tenth year in Nov. I can't believe it's only 10 seems like forever lol j/k I love this Man more today then I did the first. We are all well and love it here in good old Amarillo we have great friends that we think as family so we couldn't ask for more.

Well there you have it love to you all

~ME~

Im in love with 3 boys..

2-24-09

Here they are today it was so nice outside so me and some friends went on a long walk I say long cause we started around 11:50am and once I got in my car it was after 1pm maybe cause we were talking but it felt great to get out. I hope it stays like this all week and this weekend I want to go and take some pics of the boys yes I know I take alot but just keep in mind they grow up so fast and I'm not going to pass on these moments I have plus Lorenzo is starting not to like his pic to be taken or maybe he was in a mood who know's but I still made him smile (poor Child)... so here they are

Pay It Forward

Pay It Forward

This is how it works..... The first 3 people to leave a comment on this post will receive a hand made gift from me during this year. When and what will be a surprise. BUT, in order for you to leave a comment on my blog, you have to post this on your blog first. (That means that sometime during this year you will send a gift to 3 people as well.) Get it? So, the first 3 people to comment on this post will be the lucky ones! Good Luck!

The words I should have said..

I had a great time this Valentine's day we went over to a friends house and had great food and we laughed all night so hard that my side was hurting but that's the best... But at dinner the husband's said something that they either adored or loved about their wife's and every thing that the other husband's said about my friends I couldn't agree with more.

I really do have great friends but when Jon told me mine it was so sweet and I just watched him and after 10 yrs being with this man he didn't need to say anything I already know by the way he looks at me. It's a funny thing I can look at Jon and see everything in his eye's and I am at a lost for words when it comes to him.

One of the girls there said something back to her husband that I feel all the time and it was great to hear it, But I have a hard time telling Jon how he makes me feel I show him but words are hard for me I think because when I think about him I love him some much it makes me want to cry. This Man has been through so much with me he has always been there! I always dreamed about the Man that I wanted to marry and he is all that and more, sometimes I wonder what makes him stay but when I hear him say ( Oh How I love this Women ) to me it fills me with such joy. I always say he is my soul mate and best friend so here are the things I want to say about my husband...

Jonathan brings out the best in me he makes me want to be a better person and mother,he understands me, he's there when i just need a good cry, or to just yell and vent. When i am sick i see the worry in his eye's i see that he feels lost because he doesn't know what to do.

He is a very hard worker and he let's me stay at home to be with our children he's always there when i need him. And as a friend he makes me laugh and I can tell him anything even if it's not what he wants to hear lol he let's me be me!!!!!

The spicy wife with all my flaws he loves me I love that i can just wake up and he will say you are beautiful I love that he kisses me before he leaves everyday. I love that my boys look up to him as much as I do I don't think Jon knows that he is the rock in our home that keeps us together! He is so smart it is almost unreal I believe Jon can do or be anything he wants no question about that. I love to hear him speak in Church I love the heart he has and how caring he is to other's...

I could go on for days about how I feel about him but I wanted to share this if only because when it comes to our husband's some of us don't always say it we think they should already know. That's what I always say but He wants to hear it just like I do so here you go baby I love you with all that I am and I thank God for you everyday And thank you for being the father of my children and A husband to me!!!

I love you

Here are the rules:

Go to your Picture Folder on your computer or wherever you store your pictures.


1. Pick the 6th Folder, then select the the 6th picture in that folder.


2. Post that picture on your blog and the story that goes along with the picture.


3. Tag 6 other people that you know or don't know to do the same thing and leave a comment on their blog or an e-mail letting them know you chose them.

Go to your Picture Folder on your computer or wherever you store your pictures.


1. Pick the 6th Folder, then select the the 6th picture in that folder.


2. Post that picture on your blog and the story that goes along with the picture.


3. Tag 6 other people that you know or don't know to do the same thing and leave a comment on their blog or an e-mail letting them know you chose them.



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Here is Jonathan with his pumpkin he was very happy at the way it turned out this pic was taken the year before last, so the 1st year we moved here..

I tag everyone that checks out my blog!!!!

4Jadon

Hello, Everyone



As you all know Jonathan and I had Jadon at 30 week's he was 2 LBS and 12 oz, This is something that is very dear to my heart if you have ever had a baby so small and watch him fight just to live here on earth it is heart breaking. People say that once you have children you forget all about it not true in my case I remember everything. Jadon was a fighter and Thank God he made it through but at that time I wasn't sure if I would lose him that's not what a Mother or Father want to go through. So I am reaching out to all My Family and all our friends to walk with my family on April 25Th 4 jadon Here in Amarillo It is so odd the walk here is in April because my son was born April 15Th. Me and Jon will get shirts I just need to know your size and # of people that would join us in this. we have a web page for Jadon and here is where you go for family and friends out of state you can also donate in Jadon's name on that web page. I have sent with this a pic of Jadon at birth the first one is Jon holding Jadon's hand.



Thank you for all your support and love.



Dear Stacy Newman,

Welcome to March for Babies. You’ve chosen to participate at:

Event location: Thompson Park, NE 24th St. & Highway 287, Amarillo
Date: April 25, 2009
Time: 10:00 AM

PLEASE KEEP/PRINT THIS EMAIL FOR FUTURE REFERENCE.

Your personal Web page has been created for you at:

http://www.marchforbabies.org/4jadon

So my baby is a Deacon now. (wow)

So all month I have been so emotional why because my oldest son was becoming a Deacon today and I have all these feeling's today It started right when I woke up I just started to cry, tears of nothing but Joy and knowing that he's not so little anymore. And just to know I have to do this 2 more time's Oh my Goodness I didn't even think I would make it all day without breaking into tears at church on any given moment! I know there are ladies on here that have been through this before I'm sure! But for me this is my first so I hold it close to my heart! My handsome Son stood up there in his new suit and looked as though it was a new beginning and that it is. He came to me later and said he felt so good to be up there with the bishop and how calm he felt. Mind you he was saying he was scared to go up there before hand. That just comes to show you what the spirit does to you. I am so very proud of him and the example he will give to Jonathan and Jadon... I am only sad that our families were not there to share this day with him but I know this is just the start of many things to come. I am very thankful for my friends that give me support each and everyday, You will never know how thankful I really am. To my son I only hope you can see in my eyes the love I hold for you and how happy you have made me and your father. I will save this letter so that one day when you have your own son you might share this with him. I also want to say when I sat in the Bishop's office to set Lorenzo apart I sat and listened to my husband's sweet words to his son and as he spoke he cried and I knew then that I was not the only one who felt Our father around us on this day. And yes Lorenzo's eye's are closed but I had to hurry because our Bishop was going home to take care of his family so I had to just leave it...

Lorenzo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SON......

Time fly's by!!!

I have just been in a mood for weeks now and I can't seem to pull myself out of it, it feels as I am being weight down like something has a hold of me and I am not strong enough to pull through. These mixed emotions are killing me I guess I'm just venting to myself. As a mother sometimes I feel as though I fail the same goes for being a wife or friend. I lose me in all these things I strive to be the best at but is that really me? I ask that question all the time where is Stacy because I can't find her I have always been one to say people show face (which means they act) and I have always thought I was not one to do that. Like I was so strong and open I didn't need to show face and I would say most of the time that is true. But when it comes to family it is different why is that? Is it because they know us better or is it because we love them to much to do that? Either way I have all these feelings going around and around and I can't seem to let it go. I know no one can be perfect but man wouldn't that just be easy or would it? See what I mean Questions that's all I have no answer's Do I give alittle here and there and would that be enough? or would I fall short I feel I always fall short and I know who is doing this to me but I wonder if I am strong enough to get rid of him.... I know I should pray more and do all the right things but sometimes when you feel you have failed it's not that easy! I look at my boys and every night when we say thankful's I am so thankful for just them and I walk out and ask myself what could you have done better. I know everyone has there own moments where some of these questions they have asked themselves and I'm not looking for answer's I just need to vent before I blow!

I have a wonderful husband great kids i have alot of things people would love to have but something is missing and i don't know what it is. I feel if I stand up and say what I really feel people wont like it and i feel by doing that i have lied to myself! when do you know what bridge to cross or which one you burn??

oh well just thoughts and don't worry i will be fine just needed to write it...

Okay so Im a little cry baby! so what

Okay so this month as everyone that knows me knows Lorenzo turns 12 on the 29Th and I just can't get over it. I look at him and think wow where did the time go and how thankful for the Church, He meets with the bishop I think this week or next and he is so happy And last week at Church there was a talk about being Mother's and I did start to cry because my baby isn't a baby anymore! He even said last night that if he had is own money he would buy his own suit, We told him he gets a suit for his birthday and he is over the moon. So yesterday I took them out because it was so nice outside and took some pics. And just looking at them brings me to tears I don't know what I would do or even be without my boys they are my world and I know someday they will all leave me and marry and Me and Jon will be alone and that's okay but you always hear when your daughter gets married you gain a son-in law but when your son marry's you lose them I hope that is not true! I know I am looking way outside the box he is only 12 but I just can't believe it's happening and then to be the 1st grandson in The Newman family and My family to go though this is WONDERFUL!! The 1st son to do this in our little family and I am so proud of all my boys and the path that they are on. They teach me so much. And come April Jadon turns three and in Oct. Jonathan enters the water as he will be 8yrs. All our kids have made that choice and Jadon will be the last I couldn't be happier. I have a wonderful husband that just got a new calling and I am proud of his will to serve and be the rock in our family. So yes I am being a little bit of a cry baby this month.hope you like the pics Jadon was in a mood.